Showing posts from April, 2016

surgery: an opportunity to be a mom

Some weeks feel like we are moving backwards.  It is in those moments that I need to be reminded of the truth of the beginning.  It is in those moments that I am thankful I have this blog as a record. Because two steps forward, one step back is still moving forward.  But it is so hard to have perspective when past hurts are triggered and you start to feel like you are losing the battle.

No Hands But Ours recently featured a story that I wrote about my daughter.  They titled it A Seed of Hope.  The story was published last week.  Just about the time I needed a seed of hope.  Promises were broken, lies were told and our relationship was hurting.  At the heart of the injury was a lack of trust on both sides.  I was in desperate need of a reminder of how far we have come.  

Sometimes all we need is a new perspective.  Last week gave us an opportunity to talk about what a mother is, why she needs one and how much I want to be that for her.  We were able to be very real with each other.  Som…

not so perfect prayers

In my distress I called upon the LORD, And cried to my God for help; He heard my voice out of His temple, And my cry for help before Him came into His ears.  ~ Psalm 18:6

Today was hard.  From beginning to end, just hard.  I sat on the kitchen counter this evening as my hubby washed the dishes and breathed out a loud sigh.  "I don't think I could even begin to explain everything that went wrong today." I told him, "... there were just too many things."  Today was emotional and frustrating and overwhelming.  Today was a juggling act of balancing the needs of five children.  Today was painfully watching my daughter struggle with fear and disobedience.  Today was a reminder of past hurts and of things I wish I could change.  Today was things not going as planned and then another obstacle popping up.  Today was hard.  
As moms we have days like that.  Worn out.  Angry.  Confused.  Frustrated.  God wants to hear about it.  He isn't just looking for our quiet medit…