the dilemma of the special needs mama: to expect more or to redefine the expectation
This morning I found myself in yet another medical room with my daughter. One more specialist, one more opinion, one more door opening to a thousand more questions. Appointment number three for this week. Again not anything new for us. I explain once again my daughter's history. I explain once again the list of challenges that she faces daily. I explain once again what I hope to gain from this type of appointment. I ask some of the same questions I have been asking for two and a half years. I wonder in my heart if what I have done is enough. I try to explain why this particular visit was so long in coming. "You see, it just hadn't risen to the front of the triage list of all the needs for not just this daughter but my entire family. But we are here now and we are hoping for some new information on what should come next." Silently I hope for some great new idea to come spilling forth from their mouth. I am assured by this new specialist that I a