The road winds longer

So we found out this week that the wait times for our adoption have increased. The wait for referral is now 14 to 16 months. This means that we will travel to bring home our little girl between August and December of next year. My new prayer is that she will be home by Christmas of next year. Of course I would love to have her in my arms today, but trust God's plan above my own. In the waiting is where I learn to be her Mommy. This is not just about me desiring a child. I want also to be the Mommy that she needs. Our prayer is that we will be able to communicate to her how much we longed for her before we ever saw her face. Each month we wait, we will love her even more. When we explained all of this to my oldest, he said,"Oh, but that will be so long to wait!" What a great opportunity to explain to him about God's perfect plan for our family and that we can trust Him to bring our baby home when the time is right. And what an incredibly joyous day that will be!!!

Comments

  1. JocelynMarch 16, 2009 at 3:54 PM

    This is Rachel Cruz's friend, I'm Jocelyn. I'm starting to get interested in adopting myself, so just know I'm following your updates! That's amazing you have to wait so long. I had told hubby (who isn't desiring this...YET! :) that even if we decided to move quickly NOW....it would be well over a year...well now I know it would be at least that! But I am not yet sure it would be Ethiopia or where it would be. We'll see! Very exciting to follow your journey though!

    ReplyDelete
  2. UnknownMarch 16, 2009 at 5:04 PM

    Our God is sovereign. He loves us and knows what is best for us. He knows exactly the right baby for you and the right time for her to come.
    "But as for me, I trust in You, O Lord,
    I say, "You are my God,"
    My times are in Your hand." Psalm 31:14,15
    Mom

    ReplyDelete
  3. K.P.March 25, 2009 at 10:30 PM

    It will seem a lot longer while you are in it. I am catching myself being amazed that we are quickly approaching our "referral-versary". On May 7th we will mark 1 year since we saw our Levi's face. So much has happened in that year and now I not only know his face, I know his moods and his cries and his temper and his sweet affection. The wait time will make you stronger and will give you the things you need to KNOW that God had THIS girl for you. No other time frame would work to bring you to her. God is great and adoption is AWESOME!! Can't wait to follow your journey in between my own. :)

    Love you!!
    KP

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

the dilemma of the special needs mama: to expect more or to redefine the expectation

Image
This morning I found myself in yet another medical room with my daughter.  One more specialist, one more opinion, one more door opening to a thousand more questions.  Appointment number three for this week.  Again not anything new for us. I explain once again my daughter's history.  I explain once again the list of challenges that she faces daily.  I explain once again what I hope to gain from this type of appointment.  I ask some of the same questions I have been asking for two and a half years.  I wonder in my  heart if what I have done is enough.  I try to explain why this particular visit was so long in coming.  "You see, it just hadn't risen to the front of the triage list of all the needs for not just this daughter but my entire family.  But we are here now and we are hoping for some new information on what should come next."  Silently I hope for some great new idea to come spilling forth from their mouth. I am assured by this new specialist that I a
Read more

lessons of christmas: joseph and mary

Image
In the wonderful busyness that surrounds this time of year it is easy to loose sight of the reason behind all the celebration.  The enormous gift of God.  The sacrifice of love.  The importance of those three words: God With Us.   And so for the days leading up to Christmas, I like to go back to the the original story in the Bible and to try to read it again.  Not as a memorized story, but one that holds new life and meaning.  This year as I have read and reread, I am captivated by Joseph and Mary.  Over and over again the story tells of their obedience resulting from their faith.   God says.  And they do. No hesitation. I believe God chose them because He knew their character.  He knew their love for Him would outweigh any of their fears.  This calling from God put them on a crazy, wild adventure away from the home they had known.  To Bethlehem where Mary would give birth in a cave with animals then fleeing to Egypt to protect their new son's life then
Read more

preparing for surgery: a surprise vacation

Image
I LOVE surprises.  Kevin and I often joke that surprises are my love language.  Being the receiver of a surprise is almost as fun as planning one for someone else.  And this is why, a few weeks ago, I found myself wide awake the night before our big adventure. We did not tell anyone we were leaving.  In this world of social media, it really felt like we were sneaking away. There was and is so much to be done before Elie's surgery.  The November 3 date on the calender seems to be rushing at us with lightening speed.  If we went by to do lists we knew we needed to stay home and "get stuff done".   But something else was stirring in Kevin and I.  We needed to get away.  We needed to build a memory for our family that we could think back upon in the coming months.  We needed to spend time together away from the chaos of life. Thursday night we planned it out.  Friday, while the kids were away at school, I packed our family up for our adventure, turned off my phone
Read more